Tuesday, January 29, 2008

The Victim.

I believe that i am currently a victim of hyperreality. "i once heard that love is friendship on fire, that's how i feel about you" is a quote spoken by a soon to be boyfriend in the movie The Perfect Man. This quote, as well as the title, explain so well, this idea of what love should be like. Who honestly says this to their girlfriend? This may be personal, but what the heck; i often draw conclusions from movies like this, and imagine that chad o (by bf) talks like this and acts like this towards me, when he is far from it. Another example, is that this boyfriend just happens to be an amazing artist, and draws hill duff a two sided sketch; one of her with several arms saying "stay away", and the other in his arms as he says, "i'll always be here for you." This of course would be cool in real life, if your situation granted the circumstances, however, i have some to realize that my relationship is not like this, and that's ok. As i mentioned in class, i think we fail to find the true beauty that lies within our imperfections; the fact that chad o is not The Perfect Man, should be a blessing, because if he was, i would kill myself after getting so sick of him! This is weird, because i recently have found myself a true victim to this hyperreality, which lead me to hours of conversation in the bathroom with my sister kaitlyn, after we just sat through a 10:30pm chick flick. I was almost complaining to her; why can't he just do this, why can't he just be like that, how come he won't just change this?! it's like i wanna tell myself "shut up you bitch!" (pardon) but seriously, i can't stand myself sometimes, and i blame it completely on the influence of hyperreality (not entirely). So, in conclusion, my sis gave me a very needed bonk on the head, i reality check, that i should accept his imperfections, and those little things that bother me, and focus on the overriding good things about him (which are many), and after a while, the things i thought annoying and "bad" about him, will fade, and they may even change without us realizing it, like a gift for being tolerant. i realize that we're not married, but i don't believe that matters when it comes to simply learning about life. so right now, it matters.

http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0380623/quotes
http://www.matchflick.com/flicks/15196

[I know i didn't exactly follow the structure of this, but i simply have a lot of commentary. Hope you didn't find it too boring!]